STUCK in the MUCK
Had some disappointing news at the end of last week - that other job I was trying out for was given to someone else. Damn. Really put me in a funk. I went home trying to think why I didn't get it.... Did I wear my hair wrong that day? Was it that they thought I was too overweight? Too old? Didn't answer questions right? Did my references not check out? Last name wasn't Lopez? Or was it that I had never been a White House Intern...???!! This is what happens when you don't get a job. You ruminate over the Why's.....
I KNOW my references are good and I even have two superb Letters of Recommendations. My skills were adequate if not superior for that particular job. I thought the chemistry was there between the two people I met with, and I even got called back for the second interview. Damned if I know what made them NOT pick me. Anyway, the news was a downer, as I was counting on that job to spring me outta this joint! Not only that, but it truly was the type of job I would have loved. Now, it's back to the drawing board as they say. However, I got on the Internet right away, and did manage to set myself up with two more interviews tomorrow.. Again, I'll have play hooky in the morning to go to them, but it's worth it. Onward and upward, .... or with my luck, sideways!
Every night I go home and try, reallllly try to find a way to like this job. God knows I don't really want to be job hunting again! I would like nothing better than to stay put and keep this permanent job with benefits. It wasn't easy even getting THIS job. But no matter how much I try to tell myself to think positive and LIKE this job, and to try to turn it around for myself here and OWN it, I just can't seem to get to that point. If it were just one or two things that I didn't like, it would be different. But it seems it is just plain wrong for me in every way! I am also feeling betrayed that a lot of the job description was not explained to me in the interview process. I feel they suckered me in ... saw me coming a mile away with that look of desperation on my face!! They advertised the job as Word Processing Specialist, and they saw a way to snooker me in under that pretext, but then are paying me less than the market rate, and fobbing all sorts of clerical and secretarial duties onto me, with little or NO word processing!
Since that disappointing news last week, I keep waking up in a sweat, having nightmares and TERRIFIED that (GASP!!) - I might actually be STUCK here!!! Omigod! Up to now, I've kind of had a flippant attitude about this place and job, feeling it wouldn't be long before I'm outta here. But now, the realization has set in that I might have to stay here just to have some money coming in! If nothing else turns up right away, I'm doomed to stay as long as it takes! Heaven knows I have to work somewhere as I have to pay the bills, albeit that this place is barely doing that anyway. But still, a bird in the hand, as the saying goes... But that made me so nervous that I ended up with a gyppy stomach all weekend!!
You know things are bad when Aruba begins to look good!! Achhhhh!
I KNOW my references are good and I even have two superb Letters of Recommendations. My skills were adequate if not superior for that particular job. I thought the chemistry was there between the two people I met with, and I even got called back for the second interview. Damned if I know what made them NOT pick me. Anyway, the news was a downer, as I was counting on that job to spring me outta this joint! Not only that, but it truly was the type of job I would have loved. Now, it's back to the drawing board as they say. However, I got on the Internet right away, and did manage to set myself up with two more interviews tomorrow.. Again, I'll have play hooky in the morning to go to them, but it's worth it. Onward and upward, .... or with my luck, sideways!
Every night I go home and try, reallllly try to find a way to like this job. God knows I don't really want to be job hunting again! I would like nothing better than to stay put and keep this permanent job with benefits. It wasn't easy even getting THIS job. But no matter how much I try to tell myself to think positive and LIKE this job, and to try to turn it around for myself here and OWN it, I just can't seem to get to that point. If it were just one or two things that I didn't like, it would be different. But it seems it is just plain wrong for me in every way! I am also feeling betrayed that a lot of the job description was not explained to me in the interview process. I feel they suckered me in ... saw me coming a mile away with that look of desperation on my face!! They advertised the job as Word Processing Specialist, and they saw a way to snooker me in under that pretext, but then are paying me less than the market rate, and fobbing all sorts of clerical and secretarial duties onto me, with little or NO word processing!
Since that disappointing news last week, I keep waking up in a sweat, having nightmares and TERRIFIED that (GASP!!) - I might actually be STUCK here!!! Omigod! Up to now, I've kind of had a flippant attitude about this place and job, feeling it wouldn't be long before I'm outta here. But now, the realization has set in that I might have to stay here just to have some money coming in! If nothing else turns up right away, I'm doomed to stay as long as it takes! Heaven knows I have to work somewhere as I have to pay the bills, albeit that this place is barely doing that anyway. But still, a bird in the hand, as the saying goes... But that made me so nervous that I ended up with a gyppy stomach all weekend!!
You know things are bad when Aruba begins to look good!! Achhhhh!
posted by LADYGOLD at 2:27 PM
